Showing posts with label heart murmur. Show all posts
Showing posts with label heart murmur. Show all posts

Monday, July 1, 2013

Sweet Heart

Dear Conrad,

We got a call from the hospital that we had been discharged before your hearing tests had been completed. Because you were born via cesarean, you had a lot of fluid in your ears, so you failed your first test. You were supposed to be given two more, but for whatever reason, you didn't get them. Fortunately, the hospital offered to schedule and pay for a hearing test at their facility, so it all worked out. They even sent us some apology gift cards to Applebee's, which was so kind of them.

At your next pediatrician's appointment, you were hardly jaundiced at all, so we were relieved that you were bouncing back so well. Dr. Weidt thought she heard your heart murmur too, so I told her about the nurse that had been sent out by our insurance and how she thought she heard one too. She immediately scheduled a visit with a heart specialist, and even got it to coincide with our hearing test.

The day of the tests came, and your daddy and I were both really nervous that we would get bad news. It took us forever to find the hearing specialist's office, but we ran into a doctor who showed us where to go. She walked us through some of the procedure, like how they can tell if a baby's hearing is working since babies can't verbally tell you that they can hear things. It was really fascinating. The first time she ran the test, you failed again, and your dad and I stiffened. Since we are both musicians, we were afraid that there was going to be a huge part of our lives that we couldn't share with you. The doctor then switched out the tips on her little machine, saying that they might have been too big and were giving her a false reading. After that, you passed with flying colors. Thank goodness.

We made our way down to wear another doctor was going to ultrasound your heart. My best friend Jeff sent me a reassuring message that he had a heart murmur as a baby and grew out of it, so we hoped that if you did have a murmur that it would be something minor. We watched as the doctor scanned all over your heart, and you flailed your little arms. You weren't uncomfortable or anything, you just couldn't control your limbs yet. In fact, you hardly made any noise at all during the ultrasound. The doctor who was scanning you said that he couldn't see any problems with the heart, but after a hospital in Saint Louis checked it all out we would have a definitive answer.

I just realized that, as of this writing, Saint Louis never did call to tell me whether you had a hole in your heart or not. Ha! I can only assume it was a fluke since Dr. Weidt has checked your heart at every appointment and it has been fine since that first one.

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Monday, June 10, 2013

Surprise! Nana's Visit.

Dear Conrad,

After Poppy and Gigi left and your dad came back from rehearsal, there wasn't much time to ourselves before Nana and Papa came to visit you. Nana had a surprise for us: After Papa left the next day, she was going to stay with us for an entire week!

From your first outing (besides leaving the hospital), October 20th, 2012. We were eating at a pub called Flat Branch in Columbia, Missouri, with Nana and Papa. You still look pretty jaundiced here, but it was starting to get better. I knitted the pumpkin hat for you just before you were born.
It was ... awkward, to say the least. I appreciated having her there when, at 7 o'clock in the morning, you had woken for the umpteenth time and I could really, really use an hour of deep sleep before I had to take your dad to class. I was still taking my pain pills from the surgery, and moving was very difficult. However, Nana wasn't able to help me clean the apartment or drive your dad to class (both things I was not supposed to be doing while I was on medication) so I had to continue doing them on my own.

Having Nana there also made it difficult to nurse or pump milk for you, since she could just whip up a bottle of formula for you without bothering anyone. I started to think that everyone was trying to sabotage my nursing efforts, and it made me angry.

One week old here. Boone Hospital (where you were born) provided all the babies with a swaddling wrap. You didn't hate the swaddle like some babies, but you would wriggle in them until you could get an arm loose.
I had just changed you, and you were staring out the window in this picture. You loved seeing and being outdoors as a baby.
The day you turned one week old, a nurse provided by Medicaid came out to see you. She weighed you and performed a basic check-up. I was ecstatic to hear that not only had you gained weight, but you were already two full ounces over your birth weight! What a huge relief to hear that you were going to be okay, and I started to feel less angry about the formula since that is probably what helped you gain that weight back the most. Then she casually mentioned that she thought she heard a heart murmur though, and that put me back on edge. She did try to reassure me that it was probably nothing, and she may have misheard altogether. I would have bought that, except when we went to visit with your normal pediatrician the next day she also thought she heard a heart murmur, so she scheduled an appointment for an ultrasound on your heart. So scary!

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